The moment was very surreal. She was a very
big star, a very well known woman, and she was offering him something she
shouldn’t. He knew that drugs were typical in this business but he never
thought he would see them so soon. Mia offered him two pills: one was bigger
and yellow and the other was white and smaller. She told him that both were
great and made anyone feel great, more free and without guilt. She also offered
him a bottle of wine to drink them with but he refused it, thinking it wasn’t
the best idea to mix those pills with alcohols. He had seen some TV shows were
people mixing drugs and other things ended up dead or insane. As Mia consumed
her share, he stared at the pills thinking what should he do with them.
He could tell Mia he was going to take them
and just throw them to the ground. The place was dark anyway and with all the
people moving around and dancing, they would get stepped on fast and the
evidence would disappear. But that wasn’t realistic as Mia wanted to see as he
consumed them. So he was against the wall, literally, in this opportunity. He
asked her to wait because he was a little bit nervous and she just nodded. They
then danced and talked to everyone that Mia knew and had fun just like that. He
kept the pills in his shirt’s chest pocket. He could feel them there but only
when he was thinking about Mia remembering him that he had to take them. He was
expecting her to forget all about it and for the night to have a speedy end
before anything could happen.
The truth was that drugs made him very
nervous. Even people smoking pot made him think about how strange it was to
just smoke or drink or have something distort your view of reality because the
one you have is too boring or too hard. Peter, who still had the pills on his
chest pocket, had met a guy in college that often did drugs and then he
gradually transformed into this idiotic beast that never new anything. Only the
other junkies joined him between classes and he rarely even went to class,
except for those no one ever missed. He was not an awful guy, it was actually
easy to see he could have been a very handsome fellow but drugs had made him
into this puppet with no real life in him.
Mia then got closer to Peter. He was scared
she would ask him to drink the pills again but she just started dancing in
front of him. Then, they danced together and it was just as if she had been
drinking a lot, only that she said things that she would have never said when
drinking. She talked about colors and shapes and how she felt the music. She
never said, not once, that she loved Peter or that she loved something, which
would have been typical of a drunken person. It was weird to see her like that
and Peter wondered how did she do it, with so much work around her. He also
wondered why did she do it: Mia had everything anyone could want. It made
everything stranger to Peter
When the night ended, it was him that had to
carry her to her car and then drive her home. Peter didn’t mind, as Mia had
been so good to him for the last few months. He was just a beginner, having no
experience in professional acting. And Mia just helped him get a better role
and to be prepared for it. Mia was actually a very experienced and nuanced
actress, knowing every single thing a professional performer should know. She
was famous, having done many movies and having won several awards. She was not
someone that had just arrived to the party; she was really a great
professional. Nevertheless, she ran out of friends at the end of the night and
it was Peter who took her home.
He left her in bed and her car in the garage
of her awesome apartment in a very exclusive area of town. Peter did not live
close but he stayed for some minutes, looking at the city from the balcony.
That view was magnificent and he wondered if he would ever get to have
something like that. Then he heard Mia complaining. He ran to her and she asked
him for water, which he brought with haste. She thanked him for being there but
she asked him to go and sleep as the week was going to be very complicated for
them. He agreed and left, taking a taxi to his home where he barely had any
sleep. The following morning, it was Sunday so he met his parents in his
sister’s house. There he played with his new nephew, which helped him relax and
just enjoy life.
His mother asked him if he was feeling ok
because he looked like a zombie but he told her it was just that he had not
been able to sleep. His sister then teased him that Mia was making him stay up
until late, something he didn’t even gave an answer to. He didn’t want his
family to think Mia was a problematic brat but he also didn’t want them to
think it was him who was misbehaving in some manner. The rest of that day, Peter just played with
his nephew and the dog, throwing the Frisbee and also doing a small play with
all his nephew’s toys were the dog was the savior and the princess in distress
was Peter’s mother. They all laughed and applauded.
Back home, Peter knew that acting was his
thing. There was nothing else that made him feel alive and just good about
himself. He had dealt with a lot of issues growing up and performing had been
the answer to all of it. He had been the happiest guy in the world when he had
landed his first role and meeting Mia had been a struck of luck that he still
couldn’t believe. But now, after a while, he was wondering if she wasn’t more
of a problem than anything else. What if she passed on her complicated life to
him, what if that type of life was the one to have if Peter wanted to be known
and successful? He didn’t know if he could handle the pressure. But at least
that night, he slept a bit more.
As Mia had predicted, the week was harsh on
them. Shooting had begun and the director was a very demanding man. On the
first day, he asked Mia to do the same scene at least fifteen times. Peter had
seen how professional she was, as she just did what it was needed of her and
never complained at all. She was very polite and tried to work with her
director, never been too pushy. Besides, Mia was great. Her scenes were just
something to look at, always so layered and real. She was the real deal and it
was great that, during the brakes, she would ask Peter to come with her and
just chat about anything. She gave him advice and also discusses what she
hadn’t like about her scenes, although she never criticized the screenwriter or
the director.
Nevertheless, Mia did look tired. Beneath her
make up, it was easy to see that she had large marks under her eyes and that
her skin seemed a bit dry. But then she would come to the set and just blow everyone’s
mind. When it was Peter’s turn to act, she was always there, cheering him on.
He was obviously not as good as her but by the end of the week he was able to
surprise himself with a very angry performance, in which he had to throw a
glass full of whisky to a fireplace. The scene was dangerous for obvious
reasons but it was the only one the director never asked to repeat. He said
everything had been so well done, that he’s rather not spoil it all by shooting
another scene.
Mia
congratulated Peter and they had a glass of wine to celebrate. Work went on in
various locations around town for several weeks. By the end of the third month,
the director announced they had finished the movie. Everyone celebrated and
Peter got to thank the director and ask him for his autograph. He also asked
Mia for her and she did something even better: she asked an assistant to take a
picture of them and she sent it framed with her autograph to Peter’s home.
Sadly, she had to leave town to do a musical in some other town so it was sad
to see her go but Peter knew that she would shine anywhere she went. They promised
to keep contact and they hoped to do something more together, in the future.
Finally able to have some rest, Peter got home
and enjoyed himself remembering so many things he had learned and so many
people he had met. He had been so fortunate and hoped for things to be even
better as he got involved with more and more roles. When he was acting, he felt
so alive and real, so representative of everyone but mainly of himself. He
tried to make every character his, even if they didn’t really had anything in
common. It was just the best thing to do. Months passed and he went with his family
to se the movie. He hadn’t been able to go to the premiere, due to another job,
but he decided to take his family to see it. As he put on some clothes, he put
chose the same shirt he had wore to the club that night and realized the pills
were there.
He was again attracted to the whole idea
behind them but decided to thrown them to the garbage bin as he had already
found his drug and it was a far better one.
