I don’t believe it. I just can’t. The pure
concept of a “community” is, for me, just nonsense. If there were a community,
any kind, they would be there to stop all atrocities and crimes from happening.
But that’s not the case, is it? This world is rotting at a formidable speed and
there’s nothing that can stop it. It’s just the way it is. Is it intentional or
did no one see the signs we are just fucked?
People say, often, that we live better now
than others did fifty or a hundred years ago. That is obvious. Any person with
half a brain, more than most people use, would know that. But I’m not talking
about the comforts of life; I’m talking about people as people. We have gone
down the drain and gotten worse with time. Of course, not to wonder much about it
as humanity has been capable of killing itself in mass. What comes after that
then?
Yeah, yeah… “Humanity has done great things
too”. Well, really? Medicine they say… Well why do you think we advance in
medicine if it’s not for lengthening our lives, to be able to be more powerful,
more than the bags filled with gas that we are? Medicine does not exist to make
life better but to make it longer. The innocent that thinks that vaccines and
medications are made to take care of the frail and hopeless, are just too
innocent to see what’s really going on.
So, what comes after we have killed so many of
ourselves? Well, hate of course. People hate they are free from xenophobia,
free from actual hate, senseless and insane. Well, we’re not. We all hate
something or someone. We might not consider ourselves racists, but we still
fear the people that oppressed us and those who we oppressed. It’s only
natural, after generations that behave like animals. Now it’s us who have to be
scared of the world around us, which has gotten more dangerous.
And why is that, we may ask? Well, precisely
because people in the past did so much to prove they were above others. Little
stupid groups claiming they were in possession of universal truth, telling
people how to live their lives, who to admire, who to loath and even what to
eat, how to eat and when to eat it. Sounds insane? That’s because it is. We
praise the human brain so much but the truth is our biology is so easy to
influence. So much that today it’s not hard to make someone ill, make them have
a headache or make them sick to their stomachs. We can even kill someone
without using a real weapon. We are weak.
The interesting thing is that we just won’t
admit hoe fucked we are. People are killed all over the place, disease comes
and takes a shitload of people and many are still denied the same rights as
others. Nevertheless, less important “news”, that aren’t new at all, invade the
papers to make us feel fear and hope at the same time. The grand media folk
make us love someone and hate others. They just shift the pieces of the puzzle
and make up dozens of variations on the same subject. So there’s a little bit
for everyone but the truth, the real one, is always lost forever, known to no
one, not even to the ones that make her disappear.
It is true we live better than before. But
that is because we have been taught what to think of society and we have
learned the model we live by is just the best because they haven’t create a
better one. Haven’t they? May there be something better? Who knows? We are in
no capacity of knowing that because even the most “perfect” place in the world
is deprived of something. And whatever it is, it makes that “community” and
incomplete one.
Take for instance rich people in a rich
country. They can buy all they want but any of us know that that’s not very
important at the end of the day. No, not because it doesn’t matter. Try to live
life without money on this planet. No, it’s more because we don’t really fill
our head with riches. We fill it with experiences and those who make us feel
better are not specially attached to money.
Many, for example, seek for love. The one true
love. Most people are so enthralled with the idea of “real love” that they
don’t even stop to think what that means. How do I feel love? Does it feel the
same for everyone? And here’s comes the real news: no, it doesn’t. It is a fact
that feelings are chemicals reactions happening in the brain. Rats can feel
pleasure if we put some electrodes on it and influence the right area of its
brain. Same thing can be done with humans. But feelings are more than that.
Why? Because they are stored inside our heads and have consequences beyond the
mere experience.
When we love, hate or feel curiosity, we feel
something. But we also create from that. A relationship is made by what you
remember and what you don’t. And all of this is classified: this is good, this
is bad, and this is weird. We keep it in mind and we use it as words or actions
if we need it. Those are still feeling but they have stopped being only
chemicals in our bodies. We keep them in there if we need to use them.
And
we do. But not in a very good way. Humanity has always been very trivial. We
have always, in one way or another, loved staring at shiny objects. Whether
those are nice precious stones or a beautiful body, we have always idealized
what it is to be human. We have grown as a species thinking we are just the
best there is because we can speak and walk and conquer. But what’s the use of
all of that if don’t have anything to show for ourselves?
Yes, the discoveries. We cannot deny some
humans have gone beyond themselves to explain certain things and create new
objects from what nature has given us. That cannot be denied. But another fact
that cannot be denied is the fact that most of us have no idea how to create
and we are really not interested in it. We created religion precisely to do
that. To explain what we, lazy as we are, won’t or can’t explain. Humanity
doesn’t like when something cannot be explained and that’s why so many crazy
theories exist. We just need to explain, even if the answer is obviously
fabricated.
Then again, we keep killing each other, just
because they decided to lie to themselves with different lies that we did or
because they eat differently or dress with other clothes. Or just, and we never
admit this, because they live far and looks different. This would mean
xenophobia but this is the real reason of many wars that humanity has gone
through. Just hate, without sense or consideration.
We fail to see that biologically we are
exactly the same. And we are not special. Other creatures walk and breathe and
speak. The fact that we don’t understand them doesn’t mean we are better. I won’t
go to saying we are the same psychologically because that is a creation of man
to explain what’s inside one’s head. And the explanations, often, are as ridiculous
as the explanations the ancients have for why the sun was up there with the
moon.
No, the best we can do in this world is
acknowledge that we are different, even unique, inside our heads but that we
are all the same outside of them. Of course, this doesn’t bring any peace of
mind to anyone but nature rarely cares about that. We are just one species on a
small particle of dust in the vast universe. And we fail to realize that daily,
we fail to see we don’t really matter in the broader context of time and space.
This doesn’t mean we should just go in deep
depression and die. It means we should really live, like real people would do.
Let’s just not get into the lives of others and let’s try to learn from each other’s
differences that reside inside our heads. If we took a moment learning about
what others do in life and what they think on certain important matters (not
politics, of course), we would see how similar we are, even inside our heads.
That’s the surprise of it all.
We are not unique, special or precious. We are
flawed, simple and unimportant. But we are here and that’s what really matters.
