The last place has always been paired with
all the bad connotations. Being last is seen as having virtually no good
qualities. Sometimes, not even bad qualities. You just don’t have anything
going on for yourself if you come up in the last place. You might as well not
run or participate, many think. But the truth is that there will always be a
last one, as nothing in this world lasts forever and everything and everyone is
doomed to disappear. And someone or something will be last, because things are
finite.
Can you imagine being the last human in the
world? Yes, it would be extremely lonely and sad but you would be the last one,
the last creature walking in two legs with a brain good enough to create things
that are almost impossible. And you would be the last one in that lineage. You
would be the last one to understand what feelings are and the last one to know
how to attempt and explain them. You will be the last one to love and the last
one to properly cry of real sadness.
That’s all very beautiful, poetic even. You
will be the last recipient of a vast history, encompassing bloody wars and
beautiful romances. In you, the last remaining body, memories of all that has
been and had been before you were born would be deposited. A brain acting as
the last vessel for all human thought and advancement. Every single thing that
humankind has done will be imbued in your blood and your flesh. When you die,
being the last one of us all, an entire part of the history of the universe
will die too.
Tragic but there’s beauty in all the most
awful things. We can deny it all that we want but that’s the way it is. Awful
things can be fatal, can mark the last part of something, and maybe that’s why
they can be beautiful, even in the darkness and among the most despised of
human occurrences. Not everyone can actually see that light in the dark, but
when you do, it’s the most beautiful thing you can ever see. That’s the world
we live in and the world we have made around us, as members of the human race.
So when you die, being the last of us, you
will encompass everything beautiful and everything awful in your own essence,
in your body and your soul. All the
concepts, the ideas, the feelings and thought, they will all somehow live inside
of you, still breathing even if barely, trying to survive one more day. But, as
we said before, being last is something that happens forever, something that
does not change, no matter how much we would like it. “Last” is forever and
that’s the way it is. So we will have to calm down in the last moments and just
appreciate what was and never will be again.
A year is the same. The end of this year marks
the end of a series of events that marked our life that made us into the people
that we are. Of course, many of those things will spill put into the next year
and the following years, but as our live are so short, we can really define
each year with ease. It isn’t difficult to put a name to it, to define it as
something. Some years are bad and some are good, for example, depending on whom
you ask. That’s the base of it all, the one that’s stored inside our heads for
the future.
It always happens that people begin to think
an awful lot during the last few days of the year. They regret not doing some
things and are happy that they did some others, but they know very well that
whatever has happened cannot be undone and that they will have to deal with it.
Nothing is clearer than when a loved one has passed and we remember that year
because of it. Of course, its painful, but it’s also the reminder of our own
mortality and that we should appreciate every single day on this Earth.
The thing is we start thinking about what we
have done only when the year is coming to an end, but rarely before that. Maybe
in birthdays or days when we feel especially sad or down about something, but
in many countries the last month of the year is the one with more suicides,
homicides and, in general, more violent deaths than any other part o the year.
Maybe it’s precisely because we start thinking about things and we decide we
didn’t do enough or others didn’t do enough either. It can be a mess.
The best thing is to think about every single
thing we did and not only fixating our look on the bad stuff, which is what we
tend to do often. Bad things always seem to be more serious, like their matter
more, which is ridiculous. Feeling good and happy should always be as important
as feeling like shit, so we should never take it for granted. Taking everything
into account is very important and never forgetting that we are creatures made
to feel everything, no matter what is and that nothing is forever.
At the end of this year, we shouldn’t thing
too much about the next one, we should just feel content with what we have done
and just be on the lookout for the next year. If we want to achieve something
special, then we should work towards it, doing whatever is needed to properly
reach our goal. And that’s it, do things if you want or don’t do them if you
don’t want to. It’s that simple and you should never complicate yourself with
silly thought in a moment when you should be celebrating instead of feeling
like shit. Jus enjoy the time you have because it is limited and there are no
do-overs.
Happy
new year.
