Unapologetic

  It wasn’t that he had an urge to be different or something like that. He just like the way the world felt when no clothes were worn. It made him feel alive, as if the pants and shirts he wore for work were just the symbols of a servitude he had never been happy with. He didn’t understood how some people love to wear such clothes but the important thing was that he hated them and, if he had the choice, he would have chosen never to wear them again.

Let’s go back a bit in this story to better understand Nicholas, or Nick, as only his closest friends called him. He didn’t allow anyone he didn’t know to call him Nick; he thought it was just wrong. Two loving parents, which had belonged to the hippie movement back in the sixties and early seventies, raised him like that. He hadn’t been around them at the time, but their choice of living certainly showed some of those things learned in life.

Nowadays they lived in a small farm, taking care of various animals and planting most of their food. They would avoid doctors if they could, and all electronic devices except a cellphone, which made the connection, once every two days, with their son. They would always give him advice on eating healthy and how to be a better human being and Nick took the advice. His friends appreciated his humanity and inherent openness.

Anyway, from his childhood nick had learned to respect all creatures and not to be ashamed of him, both physically and mentally. He was taught the human body is beautiful and that this beauty should always be appreciated and taken care of. And the reinforce this idea, his parents would often take him to the beach to look at people and make him sick that “ugly” rarely meant “hideous”. Most often, it meant, “I don’t like it”; a personal opinion. Respectable but not universal.

Of course, those beaches were nude ones. People would go around without any kind of underwear and, from an early age, he knew that was normal and just played as any other kid on the beach, building castles and bridges and making pits with the salt water. And he enjoyed it thoroughly. For him, his parents were just ideal because they let him do whatever he wanted but just remained him to be responsible. And Nick was smart so it made it a lot easier for them.

Of course, he received a fair share of bullying in school. Because he was so young, he just told everyone about his holidays, like any other little boy or girl did, but when he said he had being in a nudist camp or beach, the kids would laugh at him and the teacher would call his parents, who would explain their views to her, with no success. They would push him and call him names only because he wasn’t ashamed.

That’s when he learned what hypocrisy means. He was a bit older than ten years old when he learned that older men thought often about younger naked women and they were magazines and TV channels showing them, not necessarily being pornographic. And that was ok in general, although not unspoken. But when someone mentioned liking being naked after showering for some minutes, people thought of them was instantly a depraved person and someone to watch out as he or she might become dangerous.

But Nick, now aged thirty-one, knew there was nothing depraved in going to the beach and just not get any tan lines. He was amused that, when a sexual partner asked him how he did to be so evenly tanned and he answered with the truth, such person would get even more aroused. Still, after so many years, it was almost seen as a fetish. For Nick, that wasn’t the case. It was just him being who he was.

If he stayed at home a whole weekend, for example trying to finish up some work or because of the weather, he would always be naked. He showered and took care of himself, so there was nothing really bad about it. If someone visited they would ring before hand to be let into the building so that gave him a couple of minutes to grab some pajama pants and a t-shirt, or something of the sort. And he would be “presentable”.

He did that because he was aware most people were not comfortable with nudity. That’s why, and he said it loudly when drunk, he just loved sex. And it was because he felt free, not only because it felt good or was fun. He just felt more like himself during sex and also when he stayed naked at home alone. He wished it could be like that all the time but, of course, it wasn’t possible.

Nick had learned from his parents, though. When he had time to spare, and only after visiting his parent’s farm, he would go to a nude beach or to a nude camp to fish. He loved fishing too and his father had taught him everything he had learned from his father who was a fisherman, the kind that captures rare crabs or lobsters. The lake was not like the ocean but the teachings were just as effective.

The best about it all was that he had no secrets with his parents. He was absolutely honest with them and they would tell him every problem they would have. He would drive his father to his prostate exams and would laugh with his comments about it afterwards. Same with her mom and her gynecologist appointments, which he loved because of the faces of the other ladies there. Nick, in turn, would tell them about work, love interests and his love for the naked body.

It was obvious they deeply loved each other. Nick’s friends envied this relationship he had with his parents because, as they told him, it wasn’t strange that parents and children became apart with time, as their priorities change and even distances settled in. But most, he knew, had not really being that close with their families when young so, there wasn’t anything to wonder about.

One fun thing about being naked was that some people thought it was fascinating. Some of his best friends knew about it and didn’t mind (as long as he did only in his house) but people he had met randomly or through them would take an interest in it. Nick found that to be kind of awkward but always tried to answer every question as accurately as he could and sometimes even told them to ask a doctor because most questions related to some physical problem, as if you required a special set of physical and mental skills to be naked.

It was Jenna, an older woman who was a teacher of fine arts in a university, who asked him if he could model for her class. At first he said yes but then he recalled the days he had been bullied and pushed around. What if they laughed or stared in an annoying way? He loved being naked but he didn’t like to be the center of attention; one didn’t lead to the other. But he had already said yes so he went and, for once, he did love to be center of attention, even if it was to twenty students trying to draw his body.

Afterwards, he was able to see the pictures the students had painted and he was surprised to see many of them were very talented. He somehow thought students would just try to do something decent but quickly reminded him that artists become artists even before they are aware of it. When he was about the leave, he met another model and talk to him for a while. He was studying architecture and paid his lunches and other expenses with the money he made standing naked in front of the students. He quickly became one new friend.

Nick had known other people that liked nudity before but they would always like it in relation to sex, which he found to be a bit obvious, to easy if you will. Besides, they would vanish fast, after promising to call, to write or to meet again. But with Greg, he had stronger connection: Greg’s mother had been a hippie too and his dad was just the most loving guy one could meet. In his words, his dad loved everyone just because they existed.

So from then on, they would often meet and talk, not necessarily naked. Nick liked to be around someone that understood him and got what he thought of many things. In the holidays they shared a trip to the beach and had a great time. They would even go dancing at night and stay in one of their apartments each time, that was the degree of friendship and trust. Sex? No, it never happened. They were friends. And kept on being friends for a long time after they met, almost all of their lives.

Nick did love being naked but what he liked the most was people. And not any people but the people that made him who he was, who loved him for who he was and who didn’t judged just because for what he liked. Yes, he was a man that loved being naked; he was not ashamed of himself and was unapologetic. But he was also a great friend, a dedicated son, an open mind and one great fisherman.

El puente de Mitor

   En el pueblo de Mitor, todo el mundo comía pescado. Era la carne más preciada, más vendida y, por lo tanto, más cara. Los pescadores eran casi adorados, porque pocos se atrevían a navegar mares tan poco predecibles como los que existían cerca de la ciudad. Tanto era el aprecio por ellos y por su producto, que la gente del pueblo había decidido construir un puente que comunicaría la costa con el pueblo, salvando el paso sobre una cañada ganando así veinte minutos de viaje entre el mar y la gente.

El puente tenía un solo arco, bastante amplio sobre el riachuelo que había abajo. Lo habían hecho así porque, en temporada de lluvias, el agua que bajaba de la montaña podría aumentar con violencia y no querían que la llegada de pescado se viera afectada. Se aseguraron de hacer la mejor obra de ingeniería y así fue. Foráneos envidiaban esta gran obra, y admiraban la organización que había requerido de parte de todos los ciudadanos de Mitor.

Desde entonces, el pescado llegó más rápido y, cuando se amplió el puerto y los astilleros, empezaron a llegar nuevos tipos de peces y otras criaturas marinas, que incluso se adquirían a través del comercio, algo impensable años atrás. Era una época de prosperidad para el pequeño poblado y esto se vio reflejado en todas partes. La gente empezó a ser más sana y la ciudad se renovó. Todo iba bien.

Esto hasta que una noche, ocurrió un evento que cambiaría todo. Resulta que una carreta grande, de esas que podían cargar varios kilos de pescado, se desplomó en la mitad del puente de la cañada. Esto ocurría aunque no con frecuencia. El procedimiento era sencillo: el pescador mandaba un mensajero para que vinieran rápidamente con otra carreta que pudiera llevar la carga a la ciudad con celeridad, antes de que se afectara la calidad del producto.

En aquella ocasión, se hizo exactamente igual. Mientras el pescador esperaba por la carreta, se acercó al borde del puente y miró las cascadas que formaba la cañada, descendiendo hacia el mar. Era sorprendente como el pescador conocía tan bien el mar pero de otros cuerpos de agua no sabía nada. De pronto se dio vuelta y se dio cuenta de algo: el montón de pescado era menos grande. Estaba seguro de ello. Miró para un lado y otro de la carretera pero allí no había gatos ni perros. Ningún tipo de animal que se hubiera llevado la carga. Y no había ni un alma cerca.

El pescador se apoyó en la baranda del puente y respiró hondo. Seguro era un error suyo causado por las largas horas de trabajo. La última expedición había tomado más de lo previsto pero había valido la pena. Se relajó un poco pero la dicha no duró mucho: oyó algo tras él y al darse la vuelta vio que solo quedaban unos pocos peces en el suelo. Pidió ayuda gritando y por fin alguien vino en su ayuda y así se propagó la noticia de los sucedido.

A decir verdad, casi nadie le creyó al comienzo. Creían que el hombre se había vuelto loco o trataba de excusar un robo deliberado a través de una historia bastante increíble. Pero eso terminó cuando más eventos iguales tuvieron lugar, siempre cuando el puente estaba solo y únicamente una carreta cruzaba por encima. La gente empezó a temerle al lugar y se propuso tumbarlo pero todos sabían que eso no era posible. Así que determinaron que las carretas solo podrían cruzar de a dos, o más, al mismo tiempo.

Y así se hizo. Pasaron los años, una y otra generación, cambiando de la carreta a los camiones, pero nunca cambiaron sus creencias. Los camiones grandes conectaban al pueblo por una autopista nueva pero los pequeños evitaban el peaje que les habían impuesto a través del puente viejo que solo tenía una regla: cruzar en pares. Visitantes y nuevos habitantes encontraban la tradición una tontería pero les parecía curiosa y ayudaron a que permaneciera.

Lo curioso era que incluso los camiones, bien cerrados y refrigerados, perdían algo de su carga cuando pasaban por el puente. No sucedía siempre pero si lo suficiente para que el mito perdurara. Se habían inventado varios cuentos a raíz de lo sucedido pero nadie sabía si alguno era real, si alguno de verdad retrataba lo que allí sucedía.

El turismo creció, en buena parte gracias al mito del puente y los pescadores. Se organizaban caminatas por la cañada, se vendían camisetas y recuerdos y planeaban visitas tanto al puente como al puerto y los astilleros. Los habitantes de Mitor aprovecharon el misterio que encerraba su pueblo para ganar dinero y atraer a los incautos. Inclusive cuadrillas de arquitectos e ingenieros visitaron el puente y revisaron cada metro pero no encontraron nada fuera de lo común, salvo que se encontraba en un estado excepcional para tener cien años de construido.

Lo que más fascinaba a los visitantes, era que durante los paseos o las caminatas, uno que otro aseguraba que había perdido algo o había visto a la criatura que lo robaba todo. Obviamente, la gran mayoría de avistamientos y sucesos eran mentira. Muchos solo querían tener la atención de otros sobre ellos e inventaban tonterías para ello. Pero, no se podía negar, había ciertos sucesos casi imposibles de explicar: la pérdida de algún objeto personal, muchas veces de comida, mientras veían sobre la baranda del puente.

Nadie investigaba ninguna de esas pérdidas. Se les atribuía a lo distraída que  era la gente con sus objetos personales. Algunas veces, si el robado insistía, se hacía una demanda pero eso nunca había servido más que para perder el tiempo o distraer al departamento de policía del lugar, que tenía un existencia más bien calmada.

Entonces, un buen día, llegó un joven historiador al pueblo. Él no estaba interesado en los cuentos que se decían sobre el puente y el pescado perdido. Él venía a catalogar, para la oficina de patrimonio cultural, varios de los edificios de la región. Era de resaltar, que Mitor tenía una de las iglesias más antiguas del país, de unos ochocientos años de antigüedad y otro par de edificios del mismo periodo.

Al comienzo el chico no se interesó en lo absoluto en la historia del puente, a pesar de que quienes lo ayudaban en su tarea insistían en que debía visitar el lugar ya que, así no le interesara la historia, el puente tenía una historia y arquitectura tan bella que ciertamente podría ser otro elemento del patrimonio de la nación. El chico aceptó ir pero solo cuando todo lo demás fuese clasificado. Así, pasaron dos semanas más en que el tipo solo trabajó en los antiguos edificios, fascinado por todo.

No estaba así cuando, por fin, tuvo que visitar el puente. Un miembro de la alcaldía local y un pescador veterano lo guiaron por el lugar, contándole la historia completa, los mitos, los cuentos, los rumores y todo lo que se debía saber. El joven estuvo ciertamente fascinado por la arquitectura de la estructura e, ignorando el mito, pidió conocer la parte inferior del puente.

Allí abajo estuvo un rato con los dos hombres un buen rato hasta que estos dos se aburrieron, ya que el joven solo estaba interesado en los detalles magníficos del puente. Le dijeron que enviarían a alguien para acompañarlo pero él no escuchó. Mientras estuvo solo vio que había mosaicos en las bases del puente y hubiera querido ver el otro lado también pero se conformó con quedarse allí, fascinado.

De pronto, sintió frío y un extraño viento revoloteó su pelo. Entonces perdió fuerza en sus piernas y cayó arrodillado al polvoso suelo. Se sintió enfermo, como si de repente una horrible enfermedad hubiera penetrado su cuerpo y este no hubiera estado listo para enfrentar algo de ese estilo. Con la poca energía que tenía, tratóo de mover leste no hubiera estado listo para enfrentar algo de ese estilo. Con la poca energque el joven solo estaba interesadoó de mover las piernas pero no quisieron responder. Se sintió mareado pero trató de respirar lentamente y no perder el sentido de la realidad.

Entonces sucedió algo que él sabía que era real pero que no podía haberlo sido, no tenía sentido alguno. De todas partes empezaron a salir animales: lobos, gatos monteses, osos y también otros menos peligrosos como castores, todo tipo de aves y otros mamíferos. Todos parecían verlo pero lo extraño del caso es que lo miraban con ojos brillantes de color azul, o eso veía él al menos. Después de un rato ya no vio nada.

Se despertó de golpe, horas después, en el hospital de Mitor. Dijeron que había sufrido un colapso nervioso y se había golpeado fuertemente contra el duro suelo bajo el puente. Él contó su historia pero esta vez, nadie le creyó. No era como las otras historias respecto del puente. De hecho, esta ni siquiera era una historia como tal sino una escena y una bastante extraña. El chico no volvió a repetirla y decidió irse lo más pronto posible.

Sin embargo, algunos escucharon su relato y así otra historia más se adhirió al mito del puente de Mitor, el puente que había unido a una comunidad con su bien más preciado. Pero que también había dañado irremediablemente el viejo ecosistema de la zona, que había tenido que adaptarse a las nuevas circunstancias, como pasó luego con la autopista.

Sea como fuere, el puente siguió siendo un atractivo único ya que la gente que iba sabía que no iba a ver nada pero de todas maneras aún iba. Era una especie de fe que los impulsaba y los hacía creer que la magia era posible.

Underworld

   Lillian didn’t care and if she had cared before, she didn’t remember. She had lived so much, so many times and for so long that now she had been hardened, like the toughest diamond. Now, Lily was ruthless and perfect in her job, but not so much in her private life, which was largely nonexistent.

She did have a mother and a father but didn’t visit them as often as they would have wanted. She did so for one simple reason: she wanted them to be safe, not in the way of someone that would love to hurt her or make her do something against her current clients.

Clients sounds funny though. No, Lily is not a prostitute nor an escort of any kind. Lily works in the security area so people who need her to do a job for them to be safer, look her up. She works more like a spy or secret agent but she has no relation with those organizations, as she knows they would be more than interested to question her about all the jobs she has taken care of.

That’s why, besides not being close to her family, she had decided not to have a family of her own or any romantic relationship with anyone. She knew her duties, the enemies and friends she had acquired with time, were all dangerous for her, let alone for people to close. She had committed that mistake once and was sure she wouldn’t let herself go, not again.

It had happened with a man. His name was Aaron and worked in his family company. At first, Lily was attracted to him because of his family’s power, which could bring her more clients and more interesting jobs, which always fascinated her. She actually met him during one of her duties and liked him right away.

Like her, Aaron enjoyed power and the luxuries of his privileged life but when they were alone, he was simply the kindest and cuddliest man she had ever known. Of course, she had sex many times but never a real boyfriend or partner but when she met him she thought that might some day change. What if she fell in love?

And she did. And he did too. There was no way in denying that when the two met, they felt like they were the only people in the world. It was as if the world stopped and everything was just ideal and perfect.

That was until she started receiving threats. Letters in which they advised her she had stepped out of a line she had traced herself. The person that sent them told her to be careful and to return to her duties and her single life, or she would be sorry. Love didn’t let her listen or take it seriously. She ignored it all and kept on seeing him. And then, more problems erupted, closer to home.

Aaron’s father had told him to stop seeing Lily. Amazingly it was not because she had a shady life or because she was driving Aaron away of the family company. No, the older southern gentlemen had decided long ago that no son of his, let alone the one that was meant to run the company in the future, would ever marry a black woman. Lily laughed at first but then, when looking at Aaron, she realized it was not a joke, a distasteful joke.

But they kept on seeing each other. Big mistake. Aaron was practically expelled from his family, left penniless and with no prospects of a new life. His father had been sure to let everyone in the region know that Aaron no longer represented him or the family. This devastated the young man but his love for Lily was stronger, and he felt he could fight anything in order to be with her, forever.

That didn’t last for long. A hit man, out of nowhere, shot Aaron twice in the head while going to meet Lily for dinner. She waited for him for hours and finally got a call from Aaron’s father. Telling her he had been killed and telling her never to get near his family again. He blamed her for his son’s death and Lily knew he was right.

She spent months trying to get to the killer, to know if he had been the one sending the letter or if someone had hired him. She didn’t get too far in the investigation. The person that had killed the love of her life had vanished. She only knew it had been one of her many enemies who had given the order and she tortured herself thinking it had been her fault he had died. Loving him had been a curse.

So now Lily tries never to be seen, to be the center of attention for anyone. She changed the way she looked, her haircut and the way she did her makeup. Everything to look less interesting, less attractive if you will. She was a beautiful, stunning young woman but that had proven to be more of a problem that something going on for her.

Although, she kept using her body to help her in certain moments, she tried to do everything disguised as what she was: a common woman trying to make a living in a world that had denied her everything. It is true she had gotten into it herself but now there was no way out and she knew it. Only dead she would stop being afraid, scared of her on shadow.

It deserves to be clarified that Lillian had never killed anyone. She sometimes thought to herself that maybe it was better if she had that ability, the cold blood needed to killed someone but she preferred the subtle moves: something in a drink that would make them sleep or knocking them out with one of her special moves. She knew a couple martial arts and considered she had developed a style of her own and no one could say she hadn’t.

Lily tried to work as often as she could. It didn’t matter if it required flying half around the world, sailing in a cruise or hopping on a train or a bus. She loved travelling and it was one of the few things she actually enjoyed of her work. Besides, the people that contacted her were always loaded with money, so she would always buy first class.

For other things she was less flamboyant, more secretive. But she just couldn’t get inside a plane and not seat in a beautiful wide chair in the first class area, with all those delicious meals and small details that made her so much more special than she was. Travelling that way made her feel as if the world gave her a small chance to feel like a real person, or at least the person she felt she had been born to be.

But when landing or getting of the bus, train or boat, she came back to reality, and saw there was no way it could be like that daily. If she had lived a life of excess and luxury, her enemies would have paid a thousand hit men to kill her and the bounty would have been enough to make them salivate like hungry dogs.

When meeting her clients, she knew that she was both hated and needed and that also made her feel great, much more special than any of them was. They might have been the ones to have the life she wanted but, in the moments they looked for her, it was Lillian who really made the difference. It was her who made things right for them, who made their lives livable.

She stole secrets and money, changed data and exchanged information. She infiltrated companies and made them stumble to the ground from inside. It required a lot of lies and deceit, a lot of disguises and fake smiles but she pulled it of easily, because she had always known that fake world of the riches was her own. She owned every single moment and always knew what to say.

When they finally realized something had happened or who she really was, Lily was already enjoying a glass of champagne in a transatlantic flight. And they wouldn’t trace her because that would mean admitting she had won, that a single woman had destroyed their lives or that they had been dishonest enough to hire someone to topple down the obstacles in their way.

Her enemies where born of those who felt they had been attacked for no reason, those people who would never admit defeat, not in business nor in a real war. So they where patient, as only people in the finance world can be. They waited for her to commit a mistake and she had already done that with Aaron.

Nowadays, they are still waiting for Lillian to do the wrong turn, to slap the wrong person, to take the wrong road. Some people only have revenge in their soul and when you have taken everything away from them, is it not understandable? They were desperate and that was the point that gave her the advantage.

She was not only beautiful and, in many ways, lethal. Lily was also bright and she was now waiting them to go over the line. She had nothing to lose, nothing to fear. But she had a special need to be victorious. And she often was.

Vida de pantano

    Nunca había sido el sitio más común para un encuentro de este tipo. De hecho, para ningún tipo de encuentro que no involucrara al reino animal o vegetal. Sin embargo, allí estaban ellos dos, subidos en una canoa pequeña que flotaba a la deriva. Estaban tomados de las manos, con suavidad, y miraban a los ojos del otro como si no hubiera más en el mundo sino ellos. Era el amor, sin duda. Y también el tiempo, que siempre marcha hacia adelante, sin pensar en nadie.

Así estuvieron mucho tiempo, pensando en mil formas de expresar en palabras lo que sentían pero siendo incapaces de hacer algo más que sostener las manos del otro y mirar dentro de sus ojos, que parecían tener un lenguaje más fluido que el de su mente, que parecía estar adormilada o simplemente muy respetuosa del acontecimiento.

Aquí y allá había destellos de vida, en el inmenso pantano que hoy cubría un área enorme. Era un lugar tan grande, que muchas personas, la mayoría de hecho, se abstenía de entrar allí. No querían entrar en contacto con las peligrosas criaturas que residían en las aguas turbias de la enorme ciénaga y la verdad era que de allí poco se podía sacar para consumir. Peces había en otros lados, más grandes y de mejor sabor, y la madera húmeda de esos incipientes bosques no era la mejor para construir lo que necesitaban.

Sin embargo, había gente que entraba a propósito, como la pareja que ahora se encontraba plenamente a la luz del día pero eso no les importaba. Habían dejado de ocultarse, de escapar de todo, habían dejado de olvidar, algo que era casi un deporte en sus comunidades. No, ellos estaban felices de poderse mirar a la cara bajo la luz del sol. Y cuando ocurrió allí, pareció darles el impulso para inclinarse hacia delante y darse un beso suave, como si temieran que hacer algo más pudiera romper el momento.

Cerca de allí no había más nadie, a menos que se contara como presencia humana la de asesinos de sangre fría que estaban, con mucho cuidado, lanzando cuerpo al agua. Les abrían el estomago y los lanzaba allí al agua. Si no se los comían los caimanes de la zona, el agua turbia ayudaría a ocultar los cuerpos lo suficiente. Los asesinos no eran de los pueblos cercanos sino de lugares más lejanos pero venían hasta allí porque parecía ser el lugar ideal para muchas cosas, entre esas para deshacerse de cadáveres.

Pero de eso nunca se enteró la pareja que ahora se habían acostado en la canoa, uno al lado del otro, y se hablaban suavemente. No comentaban nada relacionado con sus familias ni con los problemas que tenía cada pueblo. Solo recordaban el pasado o planeaban el futuro. No les importaba si lo que hablaban se realizaba alguna vez, era lo de menos. Les hacía bien, después de tanto tiempo, poder tomarse de las manos y apreciar su mundo privado mientras imaginaban como sería vivir juntos o recordando esa memorable ocasión en la que un caimán pareció escuchar toda una de sus discusiones.

Siendo una pareja común y corriente, porque ellos eran no eran especiales de ninguna manera y eso lo sabían, no era extraño que de vez en cuando discutieran. Eso sí, si alguien escuchara todas las discusiones, tendría que ser alguien muy comprensivo ya que se veían cada tanto tiempo que siempre discutían por cosas que habían pasado hace mucho, cosas que ya no tenían la menor importancia. Pero era como si eso los hiciera sentir vivos y lo preferían así.

En sus hogares, su familias los buscaban pero, como siempre, por las razones incorrectas. Uno pensaría que estarían profundamente preocupados por su bienestar físico, habiendo sido tal vez asesinados o habiendo cometido un doloroso suicidio.
Pero no. Sus familias solo los querían en frente para reprenderlos, para reforzar en ellos sus costumbres, tradiciones y reglas que ya hacía décadas eran obsoletas. Era como si su trabajo no fuera procurar la felicidad de sus hijos sino la de presionarlos y controlar cada uno de sus movimientos.

En cierta medida y por una gran fracción de la vida de los chicos, tanto de uno como de la otra, los padres habían controlado todo. Ambos habían sido tratados como realeza, cosa que estaban muy lejos de ser. Esto no era Romeo y Julieta, por muchos parecidos que los vecinos trazaran entre esos y estos. Las dos familias no se odiaban, más bien se ignoraban mutuamente ya que eran ambas de gente pobre. En este caso no había grandes palacios ni la más bella ropa de la región. Eran casuchas tristes y harapos francamente horribles. Viviendas en la mitad de tierreros dejados a un lado por dioses y hombres, nada por lo que nadie pensaría batirse a duelo.

Y sin embargo, tanto la familia del chico como la de la chica, creían por alguna razón que eran de alta alcurnia o que merecían más de lo que recibían. Algo que tenían en común era que ninguna de las dos familias cedía un solo centímetro ante las generaciones más jóvenes: la abuela callaba a la madre, la madre a la hija y la hija a sus hermanas menores. Y estas últimas aprendían con celeridad esta tradición familiar.

Los hombres solían ser menos inteligentes y más salvajes. Esto no era algo que afectara a dichas familias sino al conjunto del genero masculino que vivía en los alrededores del pantano. Eran tercos, torpes e irremediablemente cortos de cerebro. No era una sorpresa que fueran sociedades matriarcales, donde la mujer del hogar se imponía sobre los demás y no había quien le respondiera o se negara a sus órdenes.
No por nada el crimen más grave que alguien podía cometer en esas comunidades era el asesinato de una mujer o, lo que era peor, su violación. Esos crímenes tenían como resultado un antiguo ritual, casi tribal, en el que el perpetrador era sacrificado al pantano de la manera más horrible posible.

Y así, en una sociedad brutal e implacable, existían dos personas que simplemente se amaban. No era algo que hubieses sucedido de la noche a la mañana sino durante un tiempo, durante el cual él fue al pueblo de ella para comerciar algunos animales con su padre. Desde que vieron hubo un interés pero no hablaron en los primeros meses. Lo máximo era mirarse fijamente y sonreír, muy parecido a lo que hacían allí en el pantano.

Ya cuando se conocían más, de vista, se habían hablado pero siempre de tonterías relacionadas con el mercado o algo por el estilo. Era el tipo de conversación insulsa que siempre tenía la gente pero servía para romper el hielo. Eso sí, las incipientes conversaciones eran siempre interrumpidas por algún miembro de la familia, casi siempre una mujer, que gritaba algo que nadie nunca entendía y la halaba a ella a su casa y a él hacia el carro en el que traían los animales.

Pero con el tiempo encontraron la forma para verse a escondidas, por apenas algunos minutos, para darse regalos. Hubo un alto intercambio de cartas y fue así que se enamoraron. No hubo besos ni abrazos ni tacto de ningún tipo. Tampoco se habían conocido sus costumbres ni gustos. El amor había nacido únicamente porque cada uno había reconocido en el otro algo que no había en los demás y era un interés en algo diferente a los asuntos de siempre para la gente del pantano.

Carta vino y carta fue y así creció el amor hasta que las familias se enteraron y entonces siempre había alguien junto a ellos, listo para prevenir un encuentro de la pareja. No hubo más cartas sino apenas un cruce de miradas en días afortunados. Así fue durante un tiempo hasta que, por un descuido de uno de los cuidadores, ella pudo pasarle a él una carta que lo invitaba a escaparse, a través del pantano. Él aceptó y ahora estaban los dos en aquella canoa, flotando a la deriva.

Ya no hablaban de nada, solo se sostenían de la mano y miraban el cielo, las formas de las nubes y, cada uno por su lado, imaginaba una vida que jamás tendrían.

La verdad, la que ellos no sabían, era que ambos eran tan simples como todos los demás. Estaban tan contaminados con las costumbres y las tradiciones de sus familias, que no había manera de vivir una vida independiente de ellos. Además, el amor que decían sentir no era real, era apenas un cariño que había crecido al ver la posibilidad de una vida distinta, fuera de sus casas.

Más tarde ese día, se arrepintieron de su escape y volvieron a sus casas. Solo se volvieron a ver una vez, en la que se miraron pero ya no reconocían al otro, ya no era importante. Tan solo les quedaba el recuerdo del pantano, el lugar donde podrían haber sido pero simplemente no fueron.

Scorpius

   The office was located in a very tall building somewhere in the middle of a big city. Two walls were made of glass and many parts of the city could be seen from it. Inside the room there was only a large table, capable of seating a dozen people. When the door opened, late at night, each seat was rapidly occupied by a person. Each one was identified by a small tag in front of them, on the table, with their name and position written on it. They waited a while until a woman in black came in and sat down in one corner: in front of her, she had a small table with a laptop, a remote control and the light switch.

When everyone stopped talking or arranging their belongings, the woman turned off the lights and turned on a projector with the help of the remote. The machine started making noises until it formed an image on one of the walls. Only one of the twelve scientists reunited there had to move in order to appreciate the image: a simple shot of space done by an orbiting observatory, highlighting a specific star, which bore the name Scorpius II written in read, just below the circle highlighting the star.

 The scientist that had moved to see the image stood up and looked closely to the image. The light flickered a bit but the man didn’t stop watching. It was as if the image, the name, the information clustered in one single slide was just too much not to take a moment to process it and, even, to accept it as it was.

As you know, the probe known as New Horizons has detected a signal coming from space. The transmission was sent back to Earth from the Oort cloud, where the probe now is. The source signal was also detected on Earth, days after. After some days of evaluation, we can assure the signal came from there…

He pointed to the name “Scorpius II”, glowing in the darkness of the room. The scientists didn’t say a word. Most of them had some idea of the announcement and those who didn’t, highly suspected the reasons why they were summoned to a secret office that had only be used once in the past, some ten years ago.

Any idea what the message says?
We should get there later but what I can say now it’s that the message is only half of the story we have come here to discuss.

He nodded to the woman seating in the corner, just as she pointed the remote once more to the projector. The image changed instantly, to another picture of space, this time portraying something like a stain against the black of empty space. The picture also bore the name “Scorpius II” but the magnitude of approach was highly augmented in this one. It was apparently a portrait of the vicinity of a star located far away.

This second picture, which is currently being processed to get a much better resolution, shows something rather alarming, specially considering the message we just showed you.

The various eyes in the room tried to analyze the picture rapidly but the scientist standing up gave answers to their questions faster that they could ask them.

It shows that Scorpius II has gone supernova. The star, previously analyzed, just exploded and probably affected all the system it illuminated. The various projects profiling worlds capable of sustaining life had found a super Earth orbiting Scorpius II. We don’t really know if there was something in there but we are sure it was destroyed due to the massive explosion.

The man then sat down. The woman in the corner stopped typing and turned off the projector and turned on the lights of the room. The scientists looked more confused that overwhelmed, which should have been the ideal state of mind, at least for the one leading the conversation.

Finally, someone else spoke. A young woman:

What I guess you are suggesting is that message somehow has to do with the supernova forming in Scorpius.
That’s correct.

Another scientist, a tall black man, looked confused:

Has there been any further analysis of the situation in Scorpius?
Yes. According to previous reports of the system, we can be sure that Scorpius wasn’t ready to become a supernova. It hadn’t reached that degree of maturity. It was a rather young star.

Now this had the effect he wanted on his audience. Every single person had their eyes widely opened and had suddenly chosen a better way to seat, as if their current position had not been the ideal one to receive such news.

Do you know or not what the message is about?

This was asked by a skinny and very white man, he could practically be called “albino”. He had turned slightly pink because of the recent news and because he really wanted an answer to his question.

We think we do.
What’s that suppose to mean? Do you or don’t you know?

The presiding scientist stood up again and started to pace. After a couple of rounds along the wall, he started talking.

The meaning of the message was what took longer to decipher. Actually, I was handled the last report on it as I entered the building. I read it on the lobby and, to be honest, it made me feel kind of sick.

Now everyone was truly worried. The sun was shining brightly outside and even birds could be heard. It was very strange that the world went on as usual as a small group of people talked about something as significant as what they were discussing.

We believe, and there’s no real way to be sure, that the message is a warning of some kind. We have to be mindful that the message was sent thousands of years ago, due to the distance of Scorpius. We know, because of the analysis, that the signal was actually given more power. If got to us faster than it should. Maybe it wasn’t sent thousands of years ago but hundreds and that makes a difference.

A very tanned and old man coughed before standing up and staring down at the city. Everyone saw him to this and there was a reason why: he was the oldest scientist invited and was still one of the most important astrophysicists in the world. His genius was renowned and, when his pupils saw him worry, it meant something was really hard to solve or was something to be really scared about.

It didn’t happen often, but there he was, with a very stern face, looking at the park below.

Have you sent the information to various agencies? – He asked.
Yes. At least one group in each continent has seen it. We have kept it secret too. We believe it’s dangerous to inform it to the politicians, at least for the time being.
Scorpius… What does the message say?

The leading scientist in the room sighed. Suddenly his face looked fifty years older, as if time had just realized he existed and had caught up with him.

It’s a warning about something or someone. We have concluded someone other than the inhabitants of the Scorpius planet are responsible for the implosion of the star and that they knew it. They sent the signal preventing others from the unknown danger. The signal is still travelling, though they’re all probably dead.

Now everyone seemed even more worried. What made them uneasy was the fact they weren’t able to do something to prevent or act against what had happened in Scorpius. For all they knew, whatever happened there could happen to the Sun any day.

We are waiting for another report on the event, including more information about the signal, the planet that had been detecting near Scorpius II, the star and whatever else New Horizons and James Webb can provide. When we have it, we will inform the IAU of everything and it will be them who inform everyone else.

When he stopped talking, everyone moved in their seats. But not because of what he had said, but because the sunlight had suddenly being blocked. They got scared for a moment but realized the city was in full celebration because of its birthday, and many large hot air balloons were doing rounds all over town. Sunlight came back and the scientist left, worried all the same.

Somewhere deep in space, the remnants of Scorpius floated slowly, forever denying the existence of life in that corner of the universe.

Calamar

   Fred, el calamar, era el animal más popular del acuario. Antes de su nacimiento, la gente venía a ver los grandes tiburones blancos o los graciosos pingüinos, pero rápidamente se convirtió en el centro de atención. Esto a causa de dos factores principales: Fred era sujeto de pruebas bastante seguido y había comprado como los calamares, como los pulpos, poseían memoria y la habilidad de manejar objetos. Lo segundo, era más interesante.

Adelaida, quien recibía el apodo de Laila de muchos de sus amigos, era una de las encargadas de alimentar a los animales, incluso a los tiburones. En ese tanque no se sumergían, por obvias razones, pero en todos los demás buceaban para alimentar de la mano a las grandes cantidades de animales que vivían en los varios ambientes marinos que había en existencia.

Uno de los muchos tanques era el hogar de pulpos, calamares y varios tipos de peces que los acompañaban. Para sorpresa de muchos, los calamares no eran tan tímidos como los pulpos pero tampoco se acercaban mucho a los seres humanos, a menos que fuera para dispararles tinta. Eso fue hasta que apareció Fred, que desde su nacimiento pareció mostrar cierto interés por los seres de dos pies.

El pequeño animal no solo se acercaba a los buceadores que en ese momento estuvieran en el tanque, que no era muy grande que digamos, sino que también solía mantenerse cerca del vidrio del tanque, tratando de observar a quienes lo veían desde afuera. Esto le encantaba a la gente ya que sentían que el pequeño Fred, bautizado a través de una encuesta por internet, era el más inteligente de los muchos seres que habitaban el acuario.

Siendo un calamar, Fred no podía en verdad verlos. Su ojo no estaba adaptado para ello. Pero sin embargo hacía lo que hacía y todos lo querían por ello. Laila lo adoraba y siempre dejaba su cuidado para lo último, cuando podía tomarse algo más de tiempo para jugar con el cefalópodo. La joven hubiera jurado que si Fred fuera un ser humano, sería amante de las bromas y del juego. Siempre nadaban el uno tras el otro hasta que llegaba la hora en la que Adelaida debía cambiar de tarea.

Fred creció hasta ser del tamaño de un niño humano pequeño, sin contar sus tentáculos más largos que se arrastraban con elegancia detrás de él. En el tiempo que demoró en crecer hasta su máxima expresión, Fred se fue convirtiendo en la estrella del acuario. La gente hacía donaciones gracias a los videos que había de él en internet, casi siempre jugando con Laila. La gente lo adoraba y le parecía extremadamente interesante ver un ser diferente a los de siempre ser la estrella del show.

Y, de hecho, cuando fue más grande, Fred sí que se convirtió en el centro de atención. Dada su popularidad, la directiva del acuario construyó un nuevo tanque, igual de grande al de Fred y los demás calamares, pero este solo para un propósito especial: que el calamar tuviera su propio espectáculo y sería nadie más ni nadie menos que Laila la persona que lo acompañaría.

Mientras construían el tanque, la joven buceadora tuvo que entrenar a Fred para hacer trucos simples, nada que tuviera que ver con lo que hacían otros con ballenas o delfines. Con un calamar había que empezar en lo básico, ya que nadie nunca había tratado de entrenar una de esas criaturas. Para sorpresa de Laila, hacerlo pasar por obstáculos simples fue algo bastante fácil. Ya más complicado fue hacer que Fred entendiera órdenes. Eso era sustancialmente más complicado ya que, aunque estaba comprobado que los cefalópodos podían aprender, nadie sabía que tipo lenguaje sería el más apropiado.

Laila intentó con formas y con colores, con ayuda de carnada para atraer a Fred y con sonidos. Pero nada de eso parecía funcionar del todo. Laila siempre había amado su trabajo por ser simple, en el sentido que no tenía las preocupaciones que alguien con un trabajo de oficinas seguramente sí tenía. Pero ahora este reto la enfrentaba por primera vez con la sensación de no tener una salida, de no tener una respuesta clara.

Aunque siguió intentando por varios meses, al fin de todo decidió que no había manera de hacer que Fred hiciese lo que ella quería. Así que lo que propuso a los directivos fue lo siguiente: un espectáculo simple, más gracioso que cualquier otra cosa y que mostrara la inherente curiosidad de Fred, que parecía no tener límites. Ella les mostró el plan que tenía para el show, que no debería tomar más de diez o quince minutos, y ellos lo aceptaron, aunque no con mucho entusiasmo.

El espectáculo, que tenía lugar una vez todos los días, se llenaba siempre. Consistía en sentarse frente al tanque y ver como Fred y Laila circulaban por un laberinto de obstáculos varios, como el pequeño animal le disparaba tinta desde una distancia prudente y como abría, en tiempo record, varios recipientes de vidrio y plástico, que tenían siempre un suculento premio adentro.

Tras el éxito de los espectáculos, pasó algo que nadie nunca vio venir: un inversionista privada propuso comprar a Fred para exponerlo en un acuario público en un balneario exclusivo de la Costa Azul. Lo que más ofendió a Laila no fue que alguien quisiera comprar a Fred sino que la junta directiva del acuario lo considerara como una propuesta seria. Sentar su disgusto pareció no tener efecto.

Para sorpresa de todos los fanáticos de los seres marinos, Fred fue vendido por dos millones de dólares al multimillonario, un ser despreciable que era obvio que tenía más de coleccionista que de naturista empedernido. Era conocido en todo el mundo por comprar obras de arte, casi al por mayor, para adornar su enorme casa que ocupaba buena parte del pequeño poblado mediterráneo en el que estaba asentada.

Laila, arriesgando su trabajo, empezó una campaña contra el acuario y el millonario para que no se llevara a Fred. Aprovechó el tiempo que requería poner todos los papeles en regla para el transporte del animal para poner a los seguidores de Fred en contra del acuario y del comprador.

Pero parece que fue muy poco, muy tarde. El hombre vino un día, dos meses después, para dirigir él mismo el traslado del animal. Laila no pudo despedirse y aunque el hombre quiso saludarla para agradecerle por su trabajo, Laila simplemente se fue antes que tener que ver todo lo que sucedía en el acuario.

Al día siguiente, presentó su renuncia irrevocable, lo que lamentó con dolor ya que había dedicado buena parte de su vida profesional al acuario y a los cuidados de criaturas que ahora ya nunca más iba a ver. Se despidió de ellos y de sus compañeros, que también estaban indignados con la partida de Fred pero no lo suficiente para dejar sus trabajos. Al fin y al cabo, todos necesitaban la paga, incluso Laila.

Ella partió de allí y nunca volvió. De hecho, aunque desconocido para ella al principio, muchas personas la conocían tan bien como a Fred. Los videos habían ayudado a que se hiciera famosa en todos lados y no demoró en conseguir trabajo en otro acuario, uno que parecía más sensible a su autentica preocupación por el calamar que rápidamente desapareció del radar de los medios.

No fue sino hasta un año después de su partida del acuario que alguien le envió un video en internet que mostraba el nuevo hogar de Fred. El tanque era grande y era el ser de mayor tamaño dentro de él pero Laila no pudo dejar de pensar que había algo mal en él. El color de su piel se veía desprovisto de color y nadaba poco. Su curiosidad parecía haber desaparecido, ojalá no por completo.

No fue sorpresa para ella que algunos meses después medios de todas partes anunciaran la muerte de Fred, que fue donado a un museo para ser preservado para que miles más lo pudieran ver. Aunque Laila estuvo tentada a visitarlo, jamás lo hizo. Fred era para ella como una amigo de la infancia y en todo caso prefería  recordarlo jugando con ella y haciéndola sentir irremediablemente especial.

Adele and the Island

  Adele exhilarated but undoubtedly happy and eager to see and learn more. She was diving, not very deep but had been doing it now for about three hours and she had no intention to stop. So many beautiful creatures were there, so much natural magic that she had no intention of leaving, no matter what happened.

But at lunchtime, the rest of the team was famished and in need of food. Adele had to concede that she too was hungry and they all came back to port to have a nice dinner of shellfish and recently caught sea bass. It was delicious although it seemed weird to be eating a creature she had just seen swimming free in the ocean.

Adele was, in no way, a vegetarian or a vegan. She had no intention to be either. The woman knew that humans need to feed and it was natural to do it, as long as the resources were not depleted. In here, this small island just a few kilometers from the mainland, the consumption of fish and all other animals was controlled and they were very careful not to risk the environment, which actually gave them the money to keep their island pristine and beautiful.

The woman, aged 35 or so, had come here for good. She had visited the island several times with family, friends and past boyfriends and had decided she was meant to live there. She looked up for jobs in the island or near it and had found that the harbor restaurant needed a waitress and also someone who knew numbers to properly run the place. And Adele was just right for both jobs.

At first, Ron thought she was bluffing. He had established the restaurant twenty years ago and was very careful when hiring people to work there. He looked for people that not only worked but also loved the sea and respected the food. He had interviewed at least a dozen people, two dozens for both jobs and no one had caught her interest, until Adele came by.

She confessed she needed to get way from it all. The woman didn’t say her reasons for that but assured Ron that she knew how to make people feel welcome. Adele handled the owner of the restaurant her resume and told him she had worked with money before and had always been entrusted by her employers. As a matter of fact, she had never been laid off. She had always just moved on because, as she put it, she needed to keep on rolling.

Ron decided to hire her for both jobs but warned Adele that he needed both jobs taken care of very specially and that he wouldn’t be very happy if she left one for the other or left one of them unattended for long. He was sure she wasn’t going to be able to cope with both positions at the same time. It was simply too difficult.

But surprisingly, she managed to do it just fine. Adele was a dedicated person and, once she put her mind into something, she was unstoppable. She had decided to work the numbers when the orders got slow and even asked Ron if she could stay one more hour a day to leave everything in order. She rapidly picked up a nice pace in the establishment and was soon the preferred waitress of visitors and residents alike.

As she didn’t work the weekends, Adele spent them diving with the local enthusiasts that numbered around a dozen. They would leave in a rather small boat to a spot near the island, filled with fish and other creatures, thanks to the presence of a beautiful, unspoiled coral reef. For Adele, it was the best. She felt relaxed in the water. Besides, she also felt like an explorer, entering a new world each time.

What made her a great waitress too was the fact that she shared all of her diving stories with the people that came in the restaurant. Every dish they asked for was a short story told by Adele about a certain kind of fish or an interesting anecdote about diving. And people, most of them at least, really enjoyed her stories and even came back for more.

It was worrying, though, when she had no stories to tell or when she felt somehow “not there”. It happened rarely but Ron noticed it always happened towards the end of the month, the exact time when the mail boat would come into the island to deliver packages and letters. Any person living in the island that wanted a faster service could get a personal mailbox in the city in the mainland, at least sixty kilometers away.

When Ron asked Adele about why she seemed sad or simply away, she answered she would never put her two jobs aside. And so she did. Adele never let the work pile up, even in her “strange days”. She was a very responsible person. Anyway, Ron wasn’t asking her how she felt because of work but because he was worried about her. Both him and his wife had become very close to Adele and it hurt them that she had decided to be so private with her life, not telling them anything about it.

Eventually, they stopped asking him what went on with her mood at the end of each month. And it didn’t happen because they didn’t care but because they knew she would never say anything. So they just stopped and she didn’t even noticed. She kept on working and telling her stories and diving and being sad for no apparent reason.

That was until a letter came, almost one exact year after she had arrived to the island. Her many friends on the island, practically all the inhabitants of the small piece of land, were preparing her a party to celebrate her first year as an islander. The party was to feature the ocean, seafood and a case of beer specially brought from the mainland.

But that last letter changed that. The day of the party, she didn’t go to work. She wasn’t in the house in which she had been living in for the last few months and wasn’t diving anywhere near the island. Many people had seen her read the letter right in the harbor but, after that, no one really knew where she had gone.

Many said she had boarded the mail boat, arguing with the man that drove it but finally negotiating with money. Others were sure she had gone to the Big Tree, the only so called park the island had on it. It was really a small square of grass with, in the middle, a huge tree giving shadow to a couple of houses. It was a popular spot for lovers or people that wanted a peaceful place to think. Others said she had resumed working or gone to her house, but they were proven wrong very fast.

So, for many days, no one knew anything about Adele. Ron was especially upset, as she had left her two jobs hanging, for which he didn’t look for a replacement. He told his wife that he was sure Adele was going to come back, eventually. But as the time passed, that thought began to dissolve in time.

A young woman named Arisha replaced Adele as a waitress and Ron decided to take over the accounting duties. Anyway, the restaurant was fairly easy to handle and it was only during the holiday season that he really needed a lot of help to keep the place running properly. Anyway, Arisha was a very dedicated young lady and, although she wasn’t really experienced and didn’t tell any stories, she did the job right and was sure she could do better.

It was during the holiday season, in a really hot day, when the mail boat arrived and a letter addressed to Ron arrived to the restaurant. He was busy cooking some burgers so he only opened it at night, when he had done everything to make the holiday visitors happy. Walking home, he realized the letter was from Adele and quickly opened it, reading it outside his house.

In not so many words, Adele told him she was ashamed of herself and the way she had left the island, to the extent of leaving everything she had owned in the small house she had inhabited in. She told Ron that the reason why she had left had been simple: she couldn’t bear staying in one place too long. She had never liked that, even if she felt at peace and she certainly did in the island. Anyway, the real reason was that a former lover, a man she was going to marry once, would write her every month to tell her he still loved her deeply. She avoided him, even if she felt still guilty, until the last letter came in.

The man who loved her had suffered an accident and was in critical condition. Adele left everything to be with him but was not able to get there in time. He had died. She stayed, even if she wanted to live, to see him being buried and to see her family again. But that was just another signal to leave.

She wrote Ron from a ski resort and told him she would love to see him and all her other friends soon, in due time, once she felt she was strong enough.

-       “To be honest, I will never be strong enough for anything. I had no idea what I had around until I lost it because of fear and insecurities. Anyway I hope I see you again, wherever, whenever”.

Ron shared the letter with his wife and kept it in a drawer, waiting for the day he could see Adele again to talk and tell her it was ok to stop running, as no one had never been chasing her.

La playa

   Sentir el sol en la piel, la arena raspando el cuerpo cada cierto tiempo y bajo la planta de los pies, y escuchar el sonido del mar. Todo esto era lo que Guille siempre había querido y ahora estaba allí, en la playa, disfrutando de la temperatura y la suave brisa, que hacían una combinación perfecta para relajar hasta al más intranquilo.

Lo mejor de todo era que no había mucha gente en el lugar: para ser una playa cercana a varios hoteles, tenía poco público. Pero eso, lejos de ser un problema, era otro aspecto positivo del lugar. Guille no tenía que preocuparse por si alguien venía a robarle su mochila sino que podía dedicarse a contemplar el mar y su eterna paz.

Cuando se cansó de broncearse, entró al agua. Las olas eran suaves y la temperatura del agua era perfecta para contrastar con el calor que hacía. Desde el agua, Guille podía ver sus cosas y si quisiera podría salir rápidamente. Pero la verdad era que no había necesidad: ahora el tramo de playa en el que él estaba completamente desierto.

Esto se debía, al menos en parte, a que era un día entre semana en el que muchas personas estaban trabajando, además que era temporada baja. Había planeado su viaje así a propósito ya que el joven hombre no gustaba de las aglomeraciones y de tener que esforzarse más de la cuenta para relajarse en unas vacaciones que estaban más que merecidas.

Guillermo trabajaba en un banco, lidiando con los problemas que la gente tenía con frecuencia con la entidades bancarias: prestamos, hipotecas, errores en cuentas, tarjetas de crédito,… Todo ese trabajo tedioso era responsabilidad de él y su gran grado de responsabilidad le hecho acreedor a uno de los mejores puestos en el banco, lo que era tanto bueno como malo..

Era bueno porque era una mejor paga, que necesitaba si quería algún día hacer algo de su vida, algo más en todo caso. Con el dinero de un año de trabajo en su nuevo puesto, había podido mudarse y planear el viaje que ahora estaba disfrutando sin sombra de duda. Además ya no estaba en una estúpida ventanilla sino que tenía una oficina, lo que no estaba mal del todo.

Lo malo de la situación, era que su carga laboral ahora era mucho más pesada. Todos los días, desde primera hora de la mañana, debía lidiar tanto con problemas ridículamente complicados como con idioteces que tenía que explicar un sinnúmero de veces hasta que las personas se dieran cuenta de lo que les estaba diciendo.

Hacía ya bastante rato que Guillermo no creía en la realización de sus sueños. Aunque todavía era joven, había trabajado como loco desde hacía mucho tiempo y no parecía que hubiera ningún tipo de retribución real, o al menos no la que el buscaba. Lo que él quería era tener la libertad de seguir otro camino en su vida, de elegir algo que lo llenara más como ser humano pero eso no parecía que fuese a pasar.

Él siempre había soñado, porque no había otra manera de serlo, en ser un artista reconocido. La música siempre había sido una de sus pasiones y sus padres habían aceptado que, antes de ser un adolescente, tuviera clases de piano, de guitarra y de violín. Era casi un genio para todo lo que tenía que ver con la música, reteniendo datos sobre cantantes o composiciones en su cerebro o tocando para en las reuniones familiares de la época navideña.

Pero cuando empezó a crecer, sus padres cortaron rápidamente las alas que ellos mismos habían ayudado a construir. Sin decirlo de viva voz,  consideraban que la música no lo llevaría nunca a ningún lado y sabían que si querían que su hijo fuera un elemento productivo de la sociedad, deberían alentarlo a hacer algo diferente a la música.

Así que, a meses de graduarse del bachillerato, los padres de Guille empezaron a alentarlo a inscribirse en una universidad en la que solo dictaban para carreras relacionadas a la economía y la política. Ellos decían que eran carreras que pagaban bien y para las que siempre se buscaba gente. Existían la economía pura, las ciencias políticas, la contaduría, la administración, las finanzas,… Cualquiera de ellas, según sus padres, serían opciones perfectas.

Recordando todo esto, Guille metió la cabeza en el agua y la sacó rápidamente, tratando de lavar los recuerdos pero estos estaban demasiado enraizados en su mente, demasiado presentes en su día a día, como para irse simplemente con agua.

Al comienzo, como cualquier joven rebelde, se negó a hacer nada de lo que sus padres dijeran. El primer semestre se fue, no sin reclamos de su madre y su padre que le decían que tenía que ser responsable ya que la vida no esperaba por nadie y no podría nunca vivir del aire o de las ganas de hacer algo que podría nunca funcionar. Eso no importó.

Guillermo fue recalcitrante, empeñado en no dar su brazo a torcer por ninguna razón. Esto hasta que un día su padre, ya bastante enojado, le dejó claro que no habría nada de dinero para él si decidía estudiar o hacer cualquier otra cosa que no tuviera que ver con lo que ellos querían para él.

Esto dejó al chico en shock. La verdad era que no podía creer que sus padres usaran el dinero como arma contra lo que el deseaba. Parecía inverosímil que personas que lo habían engendrado estuvieran tan en contra de lo que él deseaba hacer, vivir. En ese momento se preguntó varias veces si acaso ellos no habían sido jóvenes, si ellos no habían tenido deseos por años o si nunca se habían sentido frustrados.

Las respuestas a esas preguntas dejaron de importar al cabo de un tiempo, el mismo tiempo en que Guillermo tuvo que ceder y dar algo de concesión a los deseos de sus padres. Aunque declaró que jamás estudiaría una carrera universitaria que no significara nada para él y que su mayor deseo era convertirse en un músico real, les confesó que para eso necesitaría dinero y sabía que no lo obtendría de ellos.

Los padres pensaron en ese momento que Guille los dejaría, que se iría de la casa para emprender su propio camino o algo por el estilo pero lo que hizo los sorprendió aún más: el chico decidió que tomaría el camino que ellos deseaban para él pero para conseguir lo que él más anhelaba. Fue así que busco en el periódico y en la calle hasta encontrar un trabajo aburrido, de corbata y zapatos lustrosos.

Su primer día en el banco, como cajero, fue un verdadero infierno. La verdad era que se sentía vencido, abatido por la situación y, tras de todo, se sentía humillado al tener que convertirse en la persona que más odiaba: un chico que hacía lo que sus padres querían, ganando dinero como un androide más en una sociedad que ignoraba a quienes pensaban más de la cuenta.

Por supuesto, sus padres lo felicitaron por su decisión, incluso a sabiendas de las razones que Guille tenía para haberla tomado. Pero para él todo esto, y se lo repetía todos los días, era algo temporal. No pensaba quedarse en el banco más de un año, lo suficiente para ganar el dinero para pagar al menos el primer año de clases de música, tras lo cual planeaba ganar dinero con conciertos en lugares pequeños o en lo que fuera, con tal de lograr su sueño.

Ya habían pasado seis años de ese salto y no parecía que nada fuese a cambiar. Sus padres, tras la alegría inicial, volvieron a insistir en una carrera aseria. Esto hasta que Guille por fin decidió dejarlos y seguir su vida independiente de las decisiones de otros. Al fin y al cabo ya ganaba su propio dinero y no tenía responsabilidades más allá de cuidarse a si mismo. Lastimosamente, rompió con ellos en más de una forma.

Y ahora estaba allí, saliendo del mar para sentarse de nuevo sobre su toalla en la arena, apreciado el brillo de las olas cristalinas y la hermosa transparencia del agua. Era casi como un sueño, uno más, el estar allí sentado, despreocupado de las decisiones que había tomado y de las que habría de tomar en el futuro.

No tenía idea de cual sería su próximo paso en la vida. Tenía el dinero para las clases ahora pero lo sueños mutan, se transforman y ya no estaba seguro de ser quien creía ser o de querer lo que por mucho tiempo creyó anhelar.

Cuando recogió sus cosas y caminó por el borde de la playa, viendo como el sol se ocultaba en un hermoso ocaso, anheló al Sol por una vida de la que pudiese estar orgulloso. Una lágrima fue su ofrenda al astro solar, quién le concedería su deseo pero tendría que esperar, y ese es un reto aún mayor.

Trans-Siberian

   Niko handed Natasja with an envelope, telling her to read its content and then destroy it. He also gave her an umbrella, saying it was raining a lot in Vladivostok. He finally wished her a nice trip and promised to see her in two months on a plane to Japan, if all went well.

Natasja then boarded the train and looked for her seat. To make things less suspicious, she had bought a seat in a four-seat cabin. Getting to know other passengers and playing cards with them would make her less of a target for people watching, looking for odd behavior.

She found her seat and realized the compartment was still empty so she took the seat by the window and looked at all the faces outside: family members of the travelers, the travelers themselves giving advice about unimportant things, police officers and station guards, providing weak security to the building and even tourists. It wasn’t uncommon to see them, especially in the summer, but people around these parts noticed them always.

Sure enough, a tourist couple sat in front of Natasja and an older woman besides her. About fifteen minutes after her finding her seat, the train began to leave the station. The young woman leaned back, clutching hard on her envelope, thinking this should be her last assignment. She was so fed up with this job, always moving from one point to the next, never really having a place to call home or someone to actually care for her.

The older woman pointed something through the window and the tourists smiled and talked to her. Natasja then remembered she had to do exactly the same, blending in and trying not to look too strange among the fairly common passengers of the train.

She proposed a game of card, which they all eagerly joined. They played for well over an hour, laughing and learning each other’s name.

The couple was composed of Marisa and Tommen. She was French and he was German. They had boarded the Trans-Siberian in order to get to Lake Baikal, a place they had always wanted to visit because of its landscape and fishing possibilities. Every couple of minutes, they would say something about a fish or some sea creature they had captured while fishing. They could get annoying if Natasja or the older lady didn’t change the subject.

The older lady’s name was Katya. She had been visiting a sister in Moscow for a month or so but now she needed to go back to her home in Irkutsk. When asked why she lived in such a harsh city, especially during winter, she answered her father had been one of the first colonists to exploit oil in the region, by settling near the city. And she had always loved it there so there was no way she would leave, even if her old bones couldn’t cope with the cold as well as they did before.

Natasja introduced herself and told her cabin companions that she had been attending a specialist in Moscow. When asked if she was sick, she answered she had been attending chemotherapy, because of an odd tumor the doctors had found in her lungs. She had lived in Moscow for the time being but now that she had being deemed healthy enough, she had decided to travel to her family in Vladivostok.

She learned the story so well; she had started believing in it. She even gave precise details about the procedure, her family at the end of the line, her house and a dog named Flo, who she claimed was waiting for her in the Vladivostok train station.

But the truth was far from that nice story, which had nothing to do with her.  After playing for some more, Natasja excused herself and told everyone she had to go to the ladies room and to get a drink of water. She even asked everyone if they need something: Katya asked her to buy a water bottle to drink her pills with. She agreed and exited the compartment calmly.

Outside, however, she was impatient. She had to get to the nearest bathroom and read the documents Niko had given her in the station. No one, or so she thought, had seen her come out of the cabin with the envelope. She walked for a while until she found the restaurant wagon. There, she asked for a bathroom, which she found easily.

In there, she read all the papers. They were only two, detailing what she had to guard so carefully and instructions about what to do if the object in her possession became lost or was destroyed. This last thing was preferable than see it taken by someone else. In any case, it was imperative she got it safe to the Pacific and gave it to another person in the train station, at her arrival.

When she finished reading, Natasja soaked the papers in the toilet and then saw the ink falling, as it was made of some strange liquid. After a couple of minutes, all the letters had “melted” from the two sheets of paper. She threw the two empty papers into a trash bin and then came out of the bathroom. An annoyed tall woman was waiting outside. Natasja excused herself but the woman didn’t even care.

She went back to the restaurant wagon and bought the water bottle for Katya who was very happy to see it when Natasja got back to the cabin. They were all fed up with cards so they just started talking until they all fell asleep. The first day of seven had finished.

The next two days were all the same: playing cards and seating all together for breakfast and lunch. Natasja excused herself from eating dinner, as she had never really liked to eat at night. Her body never responded kindly so she preferred to stay in the cabin and read one of the books a kind lady rented every passenger for a couple of pennies.

The truth was that Natasja didn’t want to get too far from the cabin. The object was there, and it would be madness to leave it alone but also to take her with her everywhere. It would make her too suspicious and, somehow, she knew someone watched her everyday.

She felt it first during lunch in the second day, when she stared a little bit too long at the window and suddenly she felt everyone in the restaurant was looking at her. She was probably being paranoid but it was better to be paranoid than not to be careful.

Sure enough, her cabin companions had asked about her papers and she suddenly faked she had no idea where they were. They even called one of the train’s guards to help them look for the envelope but it was all in vane, of course. Natasja told her new friends they were only the results of the last blood test, affirming she was now well and free of any cancer cells. She just wanted her parents to see it, to make them happy.

This, somehow, made Natasja the subject of unwanted attention all over the train. She couldn’t go the to panoramic wagon or to the restaurant without people telling her how brave she was and how young and beautiful they thought she was. The young woman started having a problem with it, because some people even broke in tears and confessed they had suffered from cancer too. After all she was human and it was disheartening to see people open like that, for no real reason.

On the fourth day, at night, the train arrived in Irkutsk. So she had to say goodbye to her cabin companions. They even hugged and Katya shed a tear, handing Natasja a bottle of lemon juice she had bought in the restaurant. She said it was good for the cells and that it was the only thing she could have bought as a present. That little present made Natasja actually happy, as friends were not easy to be found, not for her at least.

They all exchanged phone numbers and then parted ways. The next day, just one more day or so to her final destination, Natasja went alone to lunch and thought of her life. She had never known a real family, having been abandoned by her parents in an orphanage. From very little she had to fend for herself and there was no space for love or animosity with anyone, not in the streets. When she got older, she was recruited by an intelligence agency from abroad in order to work inside of Russia, dealing with different kinds of jobs.

But she was tired of it. At night, alone in the cabin, she decided that this time it was her time to be herself. Not Natasja, or anyone else but only her. After handing the umbrella to the agent in Vladivostok, she would leave that world of secrecy behind.

When the train finally arrived to the Pacific coast of the Russian Federation, the police found Natasja’s body lying right in the spot she had decided to be free. After thorough investigation, they deemed her death a murder by poison, probably related to a bottle of juice found besides her. She had no possessions with her as nothing was found on the cabin besides the bottle.

Someone extracted the umbrella, just after she had died or fell asleep. But the identity of that person remains a mystery to this day and it’s very likely we will never now who called agent Natasja.